Why I chose to be an escort

I know that will be the first question, even though i think everyone already knows the answer. I chose to work as an escort because i needed to make money fast. I still call it a choice, even though my choices at the time were either make money fast, or end up losing my house and being homeless with my children.
I have three children, I was never married, and I do not receive child support.
I know i fit into a stereotype, that is to be expected, but I really am not.
I don't drink, Ive never used drugs.
My children are so loved, and well provided for. They get tons of affection, praise, and understanding. I had my children young, my first at 18, and I have devoted my life to them, because I adore them.
I owned an at home business that did well, and allowed me to provide for them and still be home with them.
And then, as life will, things turned. My business hit hard times, and I had just bought a house. My longtime boyfriend and I broke up. I couldn't afford everything all at once. If i had gotten a "regular" job, by the time I paid a sitter and traveled to work, i would not have made any bring home money.
Yes, I could have immediately sold the house, stayed with a friend, something, but my business was out of my home, and i did not want to lose that and make things worse.
I had a friend who worked as an escort- I had known she worked and treated her with kindness but never liked thinking about what she did. I was clueless to that side of the world.
I was innocent.
Its funny and sad to look back now at how much innocence i lost that year.
Anyway, i hit bottom, she brought me in. I made my mortgage payment and I hated myself. But i was hopeful. If i had made that much money that quickly, then i could do it again and pay off some of the bills that had been looming.
And so I did.
And that is what happens, you get pulled in, you bond with others who work and understand what and why you are doing it. You hide what you do from everyone else.
You hate yourself, you hate the customers who purchase you, but you feel good that you are making it.
There is a new song out by Wyclef_ "Sweetest Girl" - There is a line in the song, " She takes the loss cause she don't want to see her child lose"
And also Cityhigh " What would you do?"- "What would you do if your son was at home, crying all alone on the bedroom floor cause he's hungry, and the only way to feed him is to sleep with a man for a little bit of money"
Its so true
A mother will do anything for her child
Even give up herself
And I did
Posted by Amber
http://beinganescort.blogspot.com/2008/03/why-i-chose-to-be-escort.html